Friday, February 10, 2006
5:50 PM

rahhh. i must practise my aiming. im always missing!
like honestly. cant u ask me out earlier? like earlier?
cant u ask for my number earlier?
rahhh.
rah rah rahh.

anyway other. did u catch it?
"there can only be one other"
so there are two people.

Thursday, February 09, 2006
11:53 PM

been busy. uber busy. been thinkin alot abt everything i see and as usual, nothing stays. but one thing. i cant take it that you do to me whatever you like.

i guess im selfish with my attention..or rather, cant be bothered. i dont dish it out to everyone. i know you care when i dont reply your smses. but im scared of smses and phonecalls. it almost always means i forgot something or theres more work. and im safe in my comfort zone. not secure, but safe. i dowanna go exploring outside it, really.

ive always been the spare tyre. really. its time i face it. the spare tyre and the i-will-be-mean-if-i-dont-ask-you-cos-you-are-here-when-im-askin target. always the case with so many people. i can count the number of times ive been wanted. maybe its cos of this lack i always afford identity to groups and to people whom i feel are like me sometimes. im tired. hes right. im just..non-existent.

when will someone feel like s/he wants me as a friend. alone. like just me. maybe im scared. maybe im scared. maybe i really am.

stop treating me as a as-and-when-you-like person. i plead with you. stop doing this to me cos i can stand it no more.