remember me?
the side of shiyun
which i dont know who sees.
the disappointed one,
the one who seeks to be disappointed.
the one who expects to be disappointed,
and in some way,
contributes to it.
in expecting to be hurt,
i shun.
and in shunning,
i hurt.
and in hurting,
i get hurt.
im drained..i am.
but i like it that im lost in this pile of work.
that i have no need to think abt it.
that everyday after i wash up,
i fall into bed and start sleeptalking.
no time for you.