i just wanna be loved.
and im just sobbing alone.
with noone i wan to care for me caring for me.
its so hurting to care for someone more than she cares for you.
i feel so.
you, and you.
i pretend not to care
so i dont feel humiliated.
i show how much i care
and i realise you dont.
i hate it.
maybe thats why ive been with so many pple
that i didnt care for.
i hate you.
cos i love you so much but you dont.
its tiring pretending.
i hurt my thumb.
a big blot of blood gathered but all i wanted was you.
im needy at this moment.
but all im doing is cry on my chair
scrunging up my face like a kid
but not daring to bawl though i badly want to
cos im freakin 21
and i'll wake my family up.