Wednesday, December 07, 2005
12:44 AM

i thought like her. that maybe you loved me like you implied. but a long chat with him sucked me into his pessimism. yea im tired. again. i cant deal with this alone baby. i cant. and.. i feel insulted when i only call you baby when you call the whole world love. its tiring. to wait til the day you tell me wad u really think. you know i wont ask. and no, im not romantic enough to wait. im going back to the needle. i cant wait for you to get me off this state. the drug'll help. one shot a day..maybe more now. but i know its there. for me to depend on. it wont say im suckin energy outta it. it wont cater to every other person. im witherin from the inside. but no, its not ur fault. i just cant take it. i need to get back to the needle.