i have absolutely no idea what im doing with my life.
n with the people around me.
right now..
i just dont want to think.
i just want to be selfish and do whatever i want to.
it could be too much to ask.
it doesnt help when i need that attention,
you give it to me,
but reiterate that im a bitch.
it doesnt help when i need that attention,
you dont give it to me.
it doesnt help that at the end of everyday,
i'm lookin forward to the next morning.
that needle of life.
nothing helps.
i almost died when you found that packet.
i dont know why i had it lying around on my table.
i trusted myself too much.
i thought i didnt care.
that its nothing to be ashamed of.
that it didnt matter.
but it did.
i wanted to perish on the spot.
i was just glad you couldnt figure out what it was.
i need a touch of life.