being able to hold an intellectual conversation with her and not me.
really, i still do think it's a selfish statement
cos u never tried
and u're too closed up in ur own world to accept my views as well,
thus resulting in that failure of mine to do so.
but i guess it's unfair to say that of u,
cos there are certain people,
who will be there all the time should u need them,
but u just don't feel like turning to.
i get that alot.
and i just found out that certain people actually make u feel comfortable
holding intellectual conversations.
and it's a nice feeling, too.
so i forgive myself by forgiving u on that matter =).
i've been telling myself christ's the only reason u left.
but really, i know it's not true.
i mean, sure, religion's one of the reasons,
but i still dont know if i'm ok with that idea.
it was an excuse for me to alcohol-binge for a long while
but really, i don't know if it bothered me so much
as the fact that u were the first one i felt i could have a long r/s with
and u were the first person to leave me.
sometimes i do wonder how u're getting on,
and ur msn nick just glares at me on the msn messenger.
but with the leo's pride being a convenient excuse
and the reluctance to look bad,
ive never messaged u.
hope u're getting on well =)