Monday, January 08, 2007
10:55 AM

hey...

ngor hou gui. darn hai ngor fong mm dai.
wa zare, ngor gan boon mm sheung fong dai... mm sheung sart hoi yao yarn oi gare gam gork.

leh gao har ngor yiu dim yong.

Monday, July 03, 2006
4:04 PM

so what ive thought to be a change is not. im such a joke.

the feelin of being treated like a girl
the nice simple friendship that i thought we shared
the card i sketched the night i heard u were upset
the herbal soup noodles i got for you
im glad i didnt give them.

cos all i was to you
is a complication.
a desire to feel alive,
a desperate attempt at feeling.
cos all i was in the end
is nothing more than an apology.

how nonsense can i become? im an idiot.

Friday, June 30, 2006
1:08 AM

pictures on msn.
songs we used to share.
sweet memories.

i think i loved you.

such that each new day wipes away bad memories
and i always end up at this spot..craving you.

but you must have been heaven's joke,
for i never knew who else you loved.
even now.

Sunday, June 25, 2006
1:04 AM

carmen's in china. the last time she went i was at the airport. this time round, she could be at the airport instead of me. will she be wearing my scarf?

watched the last part of some korean show. blood b boyfriend. "can i trust this guy again?" i thought that disgusting woman was making her life complex. but mine doesnt look so simple now. flings. can i trust her? am i just gonna be a fling? i dont click with her frens. and we have silences. so do i like her? i have no idea. its not so simple after all. i dont want to be a fool again.

who am i lying to? i cancelled on him. i did. no amount of feeling bad can make up for it.

Friday, April 28, 2006
12:59 PM

alot of times, it's not the sad situation you're in that makes you pathetic. it's how people react towards you that make you pathetic. he was an example. falling into that situation was bad enough, but what made him pathetic was that most of the people who believed him only gave him the benefit of the doubt. and you? the bouts of enthusiasm, the hypocrisy, the inability to decide what you really want, what you really are, the denial of certain issues, the negligence. that's what makes your situation sad.

and stop that indulgence in self-pity and victimising yourself. because we all know who are suffering. whether or not you are.